State of Mind

I was pondering my state of life while driving to in-and-out burger today. Not as much in a super deep way, more of a literal way. I'm 22 and just kind of floating along. I have plans yea, hopefully SJSU in the fall, see what happens from there, but thats about as far as they go. Old people tell me I need to work harder, be "aggressive." Its nothing new, but I seriously dont mesh well with the "wisdom" of today. I lack any shred of motivation in the world our forefathers have created.

I am 100% confident that if i shifted into "succeed" mode i could be extremely successful financially in this life. I have no doubt im smart enough and capable enough to play the system. The problem is, i have little desire to waste my life on those things. Some would call me lazy, or irresponsible, but who came up with these requirements of life? When did life turn into something so petty? Politics, government, the education system, pretty much every "system" society has put in store, makes me ill. Its lifeless, boring, pointless, stupid. Love is a distorted concept now. People obsess over progress, but has technology replaced community? Thats how it feels to me. People try to pull me in with them, and its near impossible not to conform to some degree unless you wanna starve to death. It sucks. Im not trying to start a pity party, but seriously... step back and look at what this world has become. It doesnt take a hippie or extremist to see the gaping holes culture has bore.

So what can I do about it? How can i change the world? How can i live apart from this insanity? No answer.
I think weve dug ourselves too deep in this hole to get out at this point. I hate the fact that when i think about my future it consists of some kind of equation i have to solve in order to make x amount of money. Thats what America has become. Money. Pull yourselves up by your bootstraps people, its survival of the mindless.

My dreams have no place here.